Ain't got No Answer within...

I have no answer either I am not answer and no answer. I ain't no answer. I know if there is a problem that i am involved in much, there would be more and more things come to me. And I would be messed a lot and be mad. And these are what now I am. Yesterday, I was supposed to work as part-time assistant at English Academy, getting paid 7,000\(won). But I failed to wake up by the meeting time and I was mad last day. I am to blame myself and I am to be blamed and eventually i am blamed by co-workers at Academy(part-time workplace). Importantly I know I am deserve it. What am I supposed to do from now on? What am I supposed to be? What I would like to be? I am sxcker..

I'm so sad these days. Please save me God. I want to glorify your name, although imma the sxcker. I wanna do something special simultaneously weird. imma tryna be the best to rocking wit the best.